Camila Cabello has never shied away from making embarrassing comments about her body, but the singer still struggles with insecurity when she is photographed wearing a bikini, she admits in a new candid note to her fans that she posted on Instagram on Saturday. In her note, Cabello shared how she spent her day at a beach club in Miami, one where she is regularly “picked up” or chased by paparazzi. The swimsuit photo shoot always made her feel “overwhelmed and unprepared”, and this weekend’s visit was no different. Despite wearing a new bikini and an “entire cute outfit” to show off, the “Havana” singer felt “self-conscious” and superconscious that the paparazzi documented her time at the beach, worrying about the photos that might come out and how they will make her feel about her body. “I held my core so tight that my abs hurt and I could not breathe and I just smiled and I was so aware of where the ducklings were all the time that I could not let go, relax and do what we have to do when “We go out in nature,” Cabello wrote, adding that she also avoided eating “anything too heavy” before going to the beach. “I was tired of pretending not to be there, but I could not and I held my breath from my lounger in the ocean … I knew I looked ‘good’ in the photos and I thought I would feel complete but I never had a worse time on the beach. I felt the emptiness and sadness of the thoughts of our culture that became my thoughts. “ The former Fifth Harmony member also shared how he used to feel carefree when he was on the beach, until the photo and the shame of the body made the experience sour. “I wore a bikini that was [too] “I did not care how I looked, then I saw photos on the Internet and I was so upset,” admitted Cabello, who said last summer that she felt “insecure” about her body after her paparazzi photos went viral and caused some negatives. comments. The story goes on Speaking to Bustle last August, he described how he felt “my body’s insecurities have dropped” after shutting down body shamers on the internet. “Regardless of what photos come out or what people say, I now control the narrative,” he added. But in a heartfelt post Saturday, Cabello noted that while she can recognize how toxic society’s body models can be and does the work of distancing herself from it, she still wants to “look ‘good.’ “I reminded myself when it affected my self-esteem that I was thinking about the thoughts of culture and not my own,” he wrote. “A culture that is so accustomed to an image of what a ‘healthy’ woman’s body looks like is not entirely true for many women. Photoshop, restrictive diet, excessive exercise and choice of angles that make our body look different from what it is at the moment and in their natural form, when we take a deep breath, when we eat a meal, when we let the waves crumble around us. I remind myself of this, I listen to podcasts about intuitive food, I follow women who accept cellulite, stretch marks, bellies, bloating and weight fluctuations… and more. “I’m single at 20 and I want to feel like I’m looking good. ‘” After her last clash on the beach with the paparazzi, the Cuban-born star felt compelled to talk about how she felt about this pressure. We look at pictures of women and praise them for looking good, for looking fit or “healthy”, but what is health if you are so obsessed with how your body suffers from your mental health and you can not enjoy it? your life? For whom am I trying to look attractive and am I attractive even to myself, if I can not relax, unwind and have fun and be playful on a beautiful day at the beach? “She wrote.” I’m not on the trip yet. I can not give af ***. Mentally, knowing what I look like does not determine how healthy, happy or sexy I am. Emotionally, the messages I receive from our world are loud in my head. “Ironically, the whole cure, all the inner work, is to try to relive myself as a 7-year-old on the beach,” said Cabello, who recently spoke to Elle Mexico about trying to reconnect with her childish self. speaking spanish. “I mourn her today. Happy, silly, breathing, pretending to be a mermaid, FREE.” Cabello, whose vulnerable post received a flood of support, also spoke of repelling body embarrassment during an appearance on The Late Late Show last year. “I was like, you know what, this is normal. It’s like my weight is going up and down,” he told James Corden. “We also have these crazy beauty models from the horrible Instagram of people who have Photoshop or if they do not have Photoshop, it is not every woman’s body. He continued, “We are real women and we have curves, we have cellulite and we have fat. And it ‘s a lot like having these crazy, unrealistic patterns that make us feel bad about ourselves and make us feel like we’re getting fit to go out. I have to hide my body outside or put on a big T-shirt “. Do you want lifestyle and wellness news to be transmitted to your inbox? Sign up here for the Yahoo Life newsletter.
